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Jul. 13th, 2009 @ 10:16 am
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Effexor + Claritin = loopy Meggie. The pharmacist said it would be ok to take Claritin for my cold, but now I'm dizzy and sleepy. Ben is making it impossible to sleep, though.
I hate being sick. I didn't get much of anything done this weekend - a load of dishes, a load of laundry, and cleaning up after the kitties was about all. Well, and I worked some OT on Saturday morning before the Sick of Moltar clamped down on my head. Bren started feeling icky on Sunday afternoon, so both of us were cranky and too out of it to do much with Benny. I can't use any more sick time - Ben's got appointments up the wazoo, so it has to be saved for him and emergencies.
Today I'm going to grab a garbage bag and go through every room and toss the clutter I can see. The place is a mess, but I'm not up to a deep cleaning right now. Plus, I have to work and it's my turn to make dinner. I don't even want to think about money. Stupidhead sent me a text on Friday telling me he sent the money to cover the bounced checks via certified mail. Which is good - I wasn't expecting that until August. But ugh, my bills are ugly this paycheck. I'm glad I worked OT the last couple of weeks so I can pay cash for Monkey's birthday stuff instead of putting it on a card.Current Mood:  crazy |
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Jul. 10th, 2009 @ 10:29 am
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Read the Julie/Julia Project last night - it was entertaining and made me want to pick up a cookbook and work my way through it. in fact, I picked up the Joy of Cooking and browsed through it a bit. This morning, I started Julia Child's My Life In France and I don't want to put it down. I've been reading in between cases, just loving it. She's just so passionate about food and cooking. I love food, too. I love creating something delicious and watching people enjoy what I made. I just hate cleaning up afterwards. :D
Stupidhead's other check bounced, as I knew it would, so we're short on funds until I get paid on Wednesday and Bren gets paid next Friday. It's a good thing work has been offering some OT, even though I won't see it on my paycheck until the end of the month.
Ben's going home with MIL tonight, so I'll be doing some laundry and working OT tomorrow. And getting uninterrupted sleep tonight. There are other things I'd like to be doing, but due to lack of funds and both Bren and I being under the weather, I doubt any of them will be happening. It's a good thing I went to the library yesterday. |
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Jul. 9th, 2009 @ 02:26 pm
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Finally made it to the library today - yesterday I had an emergency call from Ben's daycare. His ears were leaking pretty badly, so I had to go down and administer his medicated eardrops. It freaked out the director, but I kept telling her that his ears draining was a GOOD thing. It stopped after we sopped up some of it and this morning he was back to normal. Last night was rough, though - he threw up (I think his yogurt smoothie was off) in the middle of the night and had a hard time sleeping after that. But he was happy this morning - at least after I bribed him with a starburst to let me get him dressed. Spoiled brat.
Anyway, it's muggy out and I was damp by the time I got to the car. And super sweaty when I got out - yay for no a/c! I had 3 books on my list and ended up grabbing those and another 7. I am such a book addict. My mom used to tell me I should be a librarian, but I think I'd get fired for reading all day instead of working. :)
I'm still not feeling my meds - that is, if they're supposed to make me feel better or calmer. I had a tantrum this morning over something stupid at work. Luckily, I'm alone, so there was no one to see it. My therapist moved away and her office still hasn't called me to set me up with someone new. I'll give them another day or so and call them. If the meds help, great, but I still need to work out my underlying issues.
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Jul. 8th, 2009 @ 09:10 am
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It feels like Monday again. Yesterday doesn't really seem real, especially me blubbing at the MJ memorial. Twice, because Bren watched it when he came home.
I keep dreaming that I'm pregnant. Last night I dreamed that I was pregnant with a boy and that my water broke and I went into labor. It was very vivid. We were still in California and I was terrified because I didn't know how long it would be before we could go home - and I really wanted to go home.
I'm going to go to the library on my lunch break so I can snag those books.
My dad told me we should wait until summer is over before we go house hunting. The prices should go down some more, he says. I know he's right, but I'm getting antsy. This place gets smaller every day - especially with Ben running around. I found some really nice homes in the area and I'm dying to see if they look as nice in person as they do on the internet. But I need to slow down, pay down my credit cards some more to raise my credit score, and see how much we prequalify for. But I am not looking forward to packing. I'll concentrate on what a pain in the ass that is - maybe that will help me be patient. :) |
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Jul. 7th, 2009 @ 11:38 am
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I am ridiculously behind in reading my friends' list - sorry, everyone. I hope to catch up soon.
Bren dragged me to see Angels and Demons. I giggled at several "serious" spots in the movie. But I'm glad we went because I saw the trailer for Julie and Julia. And now I want to see the movie, read both books, and work my way through Julia's cookbook. And go to culinary arts school. I adore cooking and baking. Maybe I should seriously consider that as a career choice. There's a Publix in the area that offers some basic cooking classes, and I think I might splurge in the fall and take their basic and intermediate courses. And then see where things go.
I feel... different. Not great, but different. I feel lighter physically. I was running a little bit on Saturday - Benny and I were playing chase - and I don't run. Ever. I also feel like my mind has stopped racing. It's actually quiet in my head. Is this how it's supposed to feel? I've only taken the new meds - a very low dose - for 5 days (tonight will be day 6). Next week the dose doubles.
I miss Katie awfully. Looking at those pictures last night made me sigh for my little girl - she'll officially be a preteen in 9 days. And I'll miss her birthday this year. :( We're buying her a new bed for her birthday; a full like she's been begging for. My dad is going to upgrade her phone to something that she'll actually like. The one she has now is 3 years old and very basic - no camera or anything. She's been begging for that for a while, too. I'd like to get her something fun, too, but I'm drawing a blank on that.Current Mood:  tired |
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Jul. 6th, 2009 @ 08:40 pm
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Monkey is gone. My mom came and got her yesterday so they could have a couple of days with her before her dad takes her for his visit. Mom cleaned like a maniac while she was here and I loaded her up with baby food, toys, and clothes for the grandson of the man who used to work for them. I feel really bad for him -they're super short on cash and he, his wife, son, daughter-in-law, and the baby are living in a tiny trailer right now.
Anyway, Monkey and my parents are at their new place and my mom is going to show her around the town today. I'm lonely for her, but I'll see her soon. Bren's mom is taking Benny tonight, so maybe I'll actually get 8 hours of sleep. I got up early to work overtime and Ben woke up 20 minutes later, so this morning was a bust for meeting my quota so I have to concentrate. I am so taking a nap on my lunch break.
Jul. 3rd, 2009 @ 08:30 am
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Igigi.com is having a 4th of July sale - a bunch of stuff is up to 50% off. Everything I've purchased from there has been top notch quality and fit like a dream. For those of you who don't know who they are, it's a clothing line for women size 12-32. Amazing dresses. It's a little on the pricey side, but when stuff is on sale, it gets snapped up quickly. I just bought 2 dresses - this one and this one. The sale code is on the front page of the website.
I wasn't going to get anything, but my work wardrobe has been decimated and I couldn't pass it up. I wish I hadn't had that issue so I could pay straight out of my checking, but that cc came in handy.
Jul. 1st, 2009 @ 09:27 am
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I updated my facebook yesterday with the Stupidhead issue, and one of my friends commented, "Have faith in God" (or something like that). I snorted a bit when I read it. It's not that I don't believe in god, it's that I think whoever that entity is doesn't really directly interfere in our lives. Kind of prime directive (Which really makes me want to punch Mr. Deity in the face. Go Larry!), well, more like free will. I wish God would swoop in and rescue us when we were in dire straits, but it kind of negates the whole free will concept. Plus I think he/she/it wants us to grow and evolve.
This is one of the big reasons why I don't really have a religion. I've dabbled here and there, was a Christian for a while, but the hypocrisy of the people who were supposed to be our role models (and I'm talking just about the specific churches I attended) and the expectation that we were to blindly accept what we were told turned me off big time. I have the desire to have a deeper connection with the spiritual, but I'm foundering a bit. Plus, my emotional state is really fragile and I don't want to expose myself to the kind of hurt that I got before.
I think I'll just do some reading.
Edit: Just so you guys know I'm not a complete asshole, I wasn't nasty or snarky to my friend, nor did I tell her how I felt. I thanked her.
Jun. 30th, 2009 @ 11:19 am
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His May child support check bounced. The one he asked me to deposit no earlier than June 12 - we didn't deposit it until the 17th. Brendon is out of his mind angry at this.... I'm numb, but I can feel the rage deep down. He's at work, but I know he'll be all whiny and act like this is my fault when he calls me back.
When we were in CA, some family who didn't come to our wedding gave us some money as a gift. Bren suggested I use most of it to buy a new computer. Mine crashed last summer and I've been using his ever since. My desk chair is broken, but usable, if not comfortable. I was thinking about replacing that, too. I just deposited Dumbass's check for June on Friday and I'm terrified that will bounce, too. It's a good thing I didn't spend that gift. Oh, Stupidhead will make good on it eventually, but this SUCKS.
ETA: I was right. He says that there were a bunch of unauthorized charges on his account and the next check is going to bounce, too. GODDAMN IT! I don't know whether to believe him, this has happened so many times before - the last time, he claimed his card was stolen, too. I guess I won't be buying anything in the near future.
I need to win the lottery or get an unexpected gift from a rich relative about now.
Jun. 29th, 2009 @ 03:42 pm
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My meds aren't working yet - at least, I don't feel any different. I go back to my GP on Wednesday and we'll get my serotonin tested again and maybe get me a higher dose. My therapist moved to Ft Lauderdale suddenly and I'm waiting to hear from the office to get scheduled with a new one. I had a good time on my trip, but I really feel numb to bad.
Speaking of my trip, I'm going to ask Bren to upload the pictures tonight so I can post. We don't have any of the SIL's wedding, so I can post about it now and get that out of the way. :)
Week one we went to Disney. We got back on the 17th and flew out to San Diego on the 18th. Can you say gorgeous weather? We didn't land until 11 pm, and no one came to get us until midnight. Ugh. Benny had a tantrum on the plane and my legs were covered in bruises and we were all exhausted.
Friday morning, we met SIL and got our nails done. Katie got flowers on her fingers and toes. We were supposed to go for sushi afterwards, but the wait was too long, so we just went to Jack in the Box. It was good, but burgerwise, I still prefer Five Guys. Friday night was the rehearsal. The church was at the University of San Diego - absolutely beautiful You wouldn't believe the size of the roses outside. We could tell right then that Ben wouldn't behave the next day, so I told Bren I'd hang out with Benny outside during the ceremony. Hour long ceremony, that is. Then we took off for the rehearsal dinner, which was at a family owned Mexican restaurant. Dinner was fajitas, which were good, but not hot. My BIL has a huge, extremely emotional family. His mother is white, his dad part Hawaiian, his stepdad is Mexican, and his stepmom is Samoan (I think). D is the oldest and all his half siblings love him so much, it's crazy. They also drink. A lot. Dad and stepmom weren't there, but all his sibs but one were - the one plays minor league baseball and they wouldn't give him time off and he was pitching on the day of the wedding.
Saturday morning, we all got up early and got ready. Benny's clothes were way too big for him - no big surprise. Katie went over to SIL's room at the hotel (Bren's aunt works at the Hyatt in downtown San Diego- gorgeous) to get made up and the girl doing the makeup gave her SMOKY EYES. She's TEN. Ugh. She said she liked it, but as the day wore on, she hated it more and more. We thought we were leaving for the church at 12:30, but they took pics until 1:30. Sil's dress was a huge, poofy, bedazzled thing. She looked pretty, but every time I looked at her, I wanted to laugh, mainly because she swore she wasn't going to look like a "layer cake." The girls had white roses with long pieces of grass dangling out of the bouquets, and SIL's had those starflower thingies with pearls in them. The roses were huge, but had no fragrance. The bridesmaids were in royal blue, and the jr's were in light blue, all different style dresses.
Katie went with us instead of going in the limo because everyone of age was drinking - the other 2 jr bridesmaids were 16/17, so I guess their parents were cool with them being around that. We got to the church and greeted family - Bren's dad's family came, except for his grandmother and uncle because she couldn't travel. We chatted for a while, I had to kiss a ton of people, and then the groom came in so everyone started to get ready. He was wearing a white tux with tails, which made me giggle a ton. He looked a lot like the guy from True Life: I'm Getting Married, except he's much whiter. I teased him a bit and then it was time for everybody to start getting ready, so I scooped up Ben and took him outside. It was 70 outside and cloudy, so perfect. He ran around for a while and then ran over to fhe fountain, where he proceeded to do his best to fall in. He was not happy with me for stopping him. After about 40 minutes, I took him inside the church so we could peek in and he started screaming, presumably because he saw Bren, who came out after another 5 minutes and told me everyone could hear Benny. He stayed with me, so I didn't clobber him.
A bit later, the doors opened and they came out and the picture taking began. We had to stick around for about 45 minutes, and then we left to take a rest at the hotel.
The reception needs to be an entry of its own, so I'll write about it later. Plus, lunchtime is almost over, so I need to get my butt back to work.
Jun. 29th, 2009 @ 12:14 pm
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Louie Anderson passed away this morning due to complications during gastric bypass surgery. :( Maybe it's fake - god, I hope so.
Never mind - total fake. Which is great, because that would have been heartbreaking.
Jun. 26th, 2009 @ 02:33 pm
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It's a tossup. Either the Jackson 5's ABC or The Way You Make Me Feel.
Jun. 26th, 2009 @ 12:49 pm
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Holy shit, you guys, Michael Jackson is dead. o_O. I have no words.
Jun. 25th, 2009 @ 07:38 pm
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The best part about being in San Diego and LA was the weather. It was only 70 or so there. Here it's over 100 with the heat index. :/
I'm still gathering my thoughts and waiting for him to upload the pix so I can post about our vacation. I'll post by the weekend regardless.
Jun. 25th, 2009 @ 11:55 am
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We're back - and exhausted. We had a really good two weeks - for the most part. :) I'll put up a vacation post as soon as Bren gets the pics on the computer and my brain is fully functional again.
Thanks for all the well wishes, you guys. Love you!
Jun. 23rd, 2009 @ 05:26 pm
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Monkey and I are about to load up the car and as soon as Bren and Ben get home, we're off. I won't be online until next Wednesday, maybe later. Well, maybe I'll look at the cuteslock post in sf_d on Saturday when I log on to pay my bills, but I won't have time for anything else.
So I love you guys. We'll take tons of pictures and I'll post some when we get back - probably back from San Diego, which will be the 23rd. I hope everyone's life goes easily and smoothly. :)
Jun. 10th, 2009 @ 03:03 pm
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YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I want to know 28 things about you. I don't care if we've never talked, never really clicked, or if we already know everything about each other. I really don't. You are obviously on my flist, so let me know with whom I'm friends!
1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarky) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? (If you have no idea, just say something crazy, it'll entertain me!)
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?
Jun. 9th, 2009 @ 07:54 am
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Mid year review over. I got a satisfactory rating, which is a relief. We don't have to move. We'll probably go and prequalify for a mortgage later this summer and hopefully be in a house by years' end, if not by fall.
I got my new card today, so we can get the supplies we need before we go - which is another relief.
I'm going to lounge around for a while tomorrow, then go shopping and take Monkey out to lunch and then PACK. Tonight we have dinner at my MIL's. Hope everyone has a good night.
Jun. 8th, 2009 @ 05:34 pm
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( Privilege meme )
So only 17 yeses, but the lessons were something I got via scholarship and the SAT prep course was free, else neither would have happened. I hope I can do better for my kids.
Jun. 8th, 2009 @ 10:35 am
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