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From: swankivy Date: July 7th, 2009 05:39 pm (UTC) (Link)

Ooh, yes, I need to get our preteen rugrat something too. Should I just wait 'til I see her?

I was really encouraged to hear you say what you said in this entry. Just wow. I always wish other people who spend a lot of time depressed or anxious could feel like I do, and it almost sounds like you might be on a similar wavelength for the moment. . . . I wouldn't say it's quiet in my head though. :)

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From: fisme_nasu Date: July 7th, 2009 05:51 pm (UTC) (Link)

I don't know when you're going to see her... I get her back August 9, but I might come down the weekend of July 31st to spend some time with her - that's one of the weekends my mom gets her. Maybe that weekend?

I hope that what I am feeling is real. I'm more than ready to be better. And it's not exactly silent in my head, either, but a lot of the constant chatter and circular thinking my brain puts out isn't there right now. :)

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From: swankivy Date: July 7th, 2009 05:55 pm (UTC) (Link)

No chance! SISTER GETTING MARRIED! Shitmonkeys. (Yeah, the wedding's August 1.)

I hope it's real too. Yes, not having the panicked loop repeating itself and chattering at you like a disappointed parent . . . I'm sure it's a relief for you. :)

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From: fisme_nasu Date: July 7th, 2009 06:11 pm (UTC) (Link)

Well, rats. Wonderful for P, but bleah. Oh well, you can wait, or you can send something up here. Maybe you can get some cool sheets for her new bed. :D Or something frivolous.

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From: hepkitten Date: July 7th, 2009 05:53 pm (UTC) (Link)

i hope your meds go well! i miss my little bebes too. all of mine are so BIG now (two of them taller than me) now i know how my mom and grandma felt :(

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From: fisme_nasu Date: July 7th, 2009 06:12 pm (UTC) (Link)

I meant both that I miss her right now and as a little girl - she's at her dad's for the summer. :/ But yeah, she's got two inches to go before she hits my height. Good thing Benny's still tiny. :)

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From: hepkitten Date: July 7th, 2009 06:14 pm (UTC) (Link)

no i got both meanings. i miss mine too because they are at camp for a week. then they come back for a week and leave for a week. then come back for a week and leave for a week. all fkn summer long. :(((((

them being so big almost makes me want another baby. then im like LOL NEVER AGAIN and quickly sober up. hehe!

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From: fisme_nasu Date: July 7th, 2009 06:19 pm (UTC) (Link)

Ack, well, I guess it's better than not seeing them for a long stretch of time.

Heh, we are planning on having another one, though Ben's shall we say, energy, makes me think really hard about it. :D

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From: caragirl Date: July 8th, 2009 01:58 am (UTC) (Link)

I'm excited for that Julie and Julia movie, too! Geoff's mom was the one who gave me a heads up about it--I think it looks very good. :)

It's good to hear that you're starting to feel some effect from the medication (hopefully). I looked at your Disney pictures that you posted in a previous entry. Looks like you had lots of fun times and saw a whole bunch of cool stuff. Ben and Katie are beautiful kids; you must be so proud!

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From: fisme_nasu Date: July 8th, 2009 03:51 pm (UTC) (Link)

I'd love to drag my mom out to see it, but I have the feeling she won't want to go. She's not a "sit still and watch a movie" person at all.

Thanks. :) I love my monkeys.

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From: shadowfreder Date: July 8th, 2009 05:08 am (UTC) (Link)

Say Happy Birthday to the Katelyn for me!!! :) She is growing up quickly!

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From: fisme_nasu Date: July 8th, 2009 03:53 pm (UTC) (Link)

I will. :) And yes, she is. It makes me sad and nostalgic.

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From: 3v1lsh33pz Date: July 8th, 2009 02:50 pm (UTC) (Link)

If you can't think of some other fun *thing* to get her, maybe do something fun with her instead, just the two of you. Like manicures or pedicures or whatever you two might enjoy doing together as special mother/daughter time.

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From: fisme_nasu Date: July 8th, 2009 03:55 pm (UTC) (Link)

That's an idea. She likes doing that a bunch.

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